Fork in the road

"Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open ..."~

There seems to be a pattern that I blog about once every couple months. No reason why my journaling habits are so scattered, maybe other than there hasn't been much to report on lately. Life with everyone is great, the weather is less than expected for this time of year in Santa Barbara, but what can I do?! I still wake up with the ocean in my view, so my excuses for complaining are little to none. Raan and I have been playing a lot of tennis lately, which is an awesome work out and so fun to learn all over again with each other. (I let him win sometimes ;)
In other news...I am contemplating a job change. Some of that might involve working with Raan at Apolis in their new office space, or possibly starting out on my own in something I am passionate about. Exactly what that is yet, I have no idea. I like the feeling of anxiousness to move to something more challenging and work with a goal that is larger than myself. All of this requires a leap though, to a place unknown, scary, and unfamiliar. I have reached a platau in my current place. Dont get me wrong...most awesome work place ever...but even my boss is allowing me to pursue my dreams and where I want to see myself in a few years from now. I will keep up to date more on here, but for now, I am searching, praying, seeking, networking, and waiting on the next move! ...........................

The view from here...

2006 is upon us!
Always nice to have a new year and new things to look forward to. I have resolved not to have any resolutions this year though. It just seems that the way things normally go, I wont carry them too much past a few months...so why begin what I don't believe I might finish. Otherwise, I am just going to change some small daily habits and hope they continue as a habit and not a short term goal! Supposedly it takes 40 days to make something a habit...hmm.

Happy New Year~this year holds so much potential, it makes my stomach jump with excitment. It will all begin in 6 days when I get my new MINI COOPER!!!!!!!!! It has been 2 months of waiting and it will finally be over. My baby has come...now I need a name. Any suggestions? Then it will progress to the Coldplay concert and I will be surprised if I can get through the whole performance by Chris Martin without some tears. Love him!

For now and onto a fresh, clean year~

Happy, Merry........hhmmm

It has been too long since I have sat down to write my thoughts. I am still getting used to journaling through my computer.
Is it really almost Thanksgiving? Wow, the holidays seem to come sooner each year. The stores have now almost completely skipped Halloween, in preparation of Thanksgiving, which only lasts until the day before and then onto Christmas! I love it though. The lights slowly go up, the red cups are in the stores for lattes, and cheery tunes fill the radio waves. I must admit though, warm weather does not put me in the mood for Christmas trees and egg nog! I am from Colorado and the snow is mandatory. Palm trees with twinkling lights is not ok. If that is the case, how come all the cards for the holidays have snow covered houses and sleigh rides?! Just wondering.
Well, as the season comes quickly, I want to prepare my heart for giving. There is no coincidence that the Day of Thanks comes prior to the most greedy month in our country. Lately I have been making more of an attempt to be thankful and remember the things that have been giving to me. It is hard though. I will be the first to say that turning back, after receiving something, to say thank you is not in my nature. I hope it becomes habit this season!
In the meantime, I am so thankful....for my priviledged life, family, friends, sunshine and rainbow sprinkles :)

Happy Thanksgiving and soon to be Merry Christmas.

Rubbing Shoulders

Humility.
It has been a common thread in my life lately. At The Bridge, Greg talked about the rubbing of one another as humans together brings humility. Velvet Elvis is quoted as saying that the tension of living in community makes it clear that we cannot go along in this way alone. We are in need of others, and that contact will challenge and make us uncomfortable. But it is so good. I have seen these confirmations become clear as I have lived lately. Being the incomplete, unfinished woman of faith that I am, I realize my shortfalls and how those 'rub' on others close to me. It is not just their faults annoying me, but I have some of the same to them as well. Knowing that I am in a world of unfinished people makes the road a little more bearable. I can forgive and show grace because we are all working out our faith alongside one another, yet separately.
Making the dots connect is so amazing~ makes me feel like the Lord is so fresh and real to me that He is making it all come together, not based on anything I have done. People, conversations, song lyrics--- humility is being added to my resume and it is something I cannot ask for or desire to gain more of without the rubbing of shoulders with my world.

AMEN

Oops, please make comments here for the 'Days Melt Into Life' post. I am still learning how to blog-- a true science I must say.

Echo lilies: Days Melt Into Life

Having my own blog is scary. It is an open book to my thoughts, but I guess that is a good thing. My life has been happening so fast but at a wonderful pace of events--basically living like a Rock Star! Between 5 birthdays, trips to Hollywood to rub shoulders with the stars, Raans company taking off into orbit and best friends visiting...I cannot complain. I enjoy being busy and especially when it is with those I am so close to.
Through my travels, and my most recent ride on the train, I conclude that in my busyness I want to be still. Still to listen, still to observe and in this quiet place...serve. This is a weakness of mine that will be worked out in the only place it can-- more service and stretching my comforts daily. Hard lesson, especially amidst the fun and furry of my fast paced life. Keeping the heart teachable~

Echo Lilies

Lilies are so beautiful and authentic. In their simple splendor, I am attracted to their creation. In the same way, I feel as though my words, as simple and unplanned as they are, are an echo of my mind, drawing me into myself to think and ask the hard questions. Blogging is a new experience for me and I am excited to see where this journaling might lead me, within myself and into the lives of others. Thank you for listening to my journey~